Family and Friends,
This Wednesday is when the cerclage goes in. I've done this 3 times already but still I get scared. It is possible that while my Dr. is stitching me up she could hit the membrane (brake my water) and I would go into labor. I ask for your prayers on Wednesday morning. The surgery is scheduled for 9:45am. I probably won't be in until about 10:30 or so. Also this is later in the morning, I will be so hungry! It's cruel to make a preg lady go without food!
A friend of mine is coming over Wed morning to take care of the kids and then my mom will be there in the afternoon and with me when I get back. I have to stay off my feet for the first 2 to 3 days so that it heals inside good and tight. And then I should be good for the rest of the preg. Not on bed rest, but what my Dr. calls... Set rest. I just take it easy, I know my body, don't over do it... That kind of thing. I'll feel more secure knowing that the baby is safe.
I have a wonderful story to share with you all.
I have been under so much stress lately with finances (I'm not good with stress). I've been so worried about how we were going to pay for the cerclage. Because of no insurance the hospital asks for 60% up front (about $1,600) also the anesthesiologist is an additional $800. And then there is my Dr. and she is so wonderful in telling me not to worry about her bill right now. Well, I've been completely stressed with the knowledge that if I do not get this surgery we could lose the baby. I filed for Medicaid last week and we got that! So they will cover all of the expense except my Dr. b/c she does not take Medicaid until the 3rd trimester. So I wasn't so stressed... the next day we got a letter in the mail from First Baptist Colleyville with a $500 check in it! WOW! So my Dr. is taken care of now too. I don't know whom the money was from, there was just a note saying that they herd I needed the money for the surgery.... We serve an awesome God. I do not deserve that kind of generosity. I have not been nice to God... yet His grace just covers me. Well, getting that letter and a phone call this week from a lady in my Sunday school class, just has made me so sad to not be at that church. They are support group... and though I am not there they still care for me, love me, and want to take care of me. I tell you I have just cried... and even crying now as I write this out. I do not deserve any of the niceness I have received. And all glory goes to God!
I thank you all in advance for your prayers and thank you for your kindness to me as well. This has been the most stressful 2m of my life. You know, life was simpler as a child and you did not have to think about finances! Oh, to be a child again! My sister Michelle brought me brownies yesterday b/c she knew I was stressed (with a nice card too). Jeanie has been a wonderful friend calling me and hanging out with me. The motherwise group at church is also wonderful for still including me. My mother has been great with letting us come over for lunch a lot. And the area libraries are good for not kicking us out when I walk in with 3 small children. (That has been the best part of our weeks, the kids have loved it and it has helped so much with Caleb's discipline!)
Thank you,
Joshua, Jennifer, Hannah, Caleb, Sarah, and baby Crispin
